Journey of a Thousand Miles

Today I was reading through 1 Samuel 15, where Saul disobeys God by keeping livestock from his enemies instead of completely destroying them like God asked him to. When Samuel confronts him, Saul denies it. Here is what the Bible says: Then Saul finally admitted, "Yes, I have sinned. I have disobeyed your instructions and the Lord's command, for I was afraid of the people and did what they demanded."  Saul was afraid of the people and did what they demanded.   In modern days, we call that a people pleaser . After his confession, here is what Samuel tells him:  "Since you have rejected the Lord's command, He has rejected you from being the king of Israel." Ouch! What a high price to pay just to please some people and gain a few cows! He lost an entire kingdom and gained nothing ! If only he had just risked the rejection of those people and obeyed God, then he would be named king. But he lost God's best plan for his life in the name of ma...

I've been asking God for a breakthrough in my life. I want a real, lasting change. I want real, lasting confidence. He has set His truth in my heart, and it's time for me to start believing it. Recently, God has placed it on my heart to let go of an attachment (or two) that I've had for a few years now. These are both for people I never dated but had strong feelings for. It has come to my attention that I still long for these people to be in my life and that it may not be healthy for me to keep pining, especially since I am dating someone and talking about marriage. I can't marry someone and pine for another. So I have asked God to remove these attachments and set me free. I've also been reading Kingdom Journeys  by Seth Barnes, and it's got my wheels in motion and my heart aching to get on the road again, to experience my own kingdom journey. Now doesn't seem like the right time for me to take off- I'm pushing 30, dating someone serious, talking abo...

I wrote this over a year ago, and I think I hit the jackpot with my current boyfriend.  I don't know what exactly God has in store for us, but I'd say He matched my hopes with this one.  God has taught me alot about true love in the short 3 months of our relationship and has healed me of brokenness from past relationships. Here are my hopes for my future husband, whether it's my current boyfriend or not: I hope my future husband knows I can't fulfill him because I'm going to fail to live up to his expectations time and time again. I hope my future husband is seeking God right now and is doing everything in his power to seek his satisfaction in Him and not in me because I will not always be able to satisfy. I hope that my future husband wants to be a good father because I want him to love our children well. I hope that he has good values because without those, our marriage will crumble. I hope that he is a strong man because I need a man who can lea...