Spirit of Rejection

It's been awhile.

I've been busy writing new music for the album, getting into a regular exercise regime, staying focused at work, and working through spiritual issues.

I recently borrowed a book from a friend called "Rejection," and it talks about the spiritual side of rejection and why we feel it. Interesting stuff. It says that an evil spirit can enter a baby in the womb and manifest itself throughout that person's life. The spirit of rejection can move through several generations, and it's passed down to you through your family line.

I know. Intense stuff!

So I've been praying for God to remove this spirit from my life so I can get on with living, and it's a lot harder than you would think. Rejection can attach to you deep into your soul, and it takes some digging to get it out.

But I don't want to live with it anymore, so I am grabbing my spiritual shovel and getting that sucker out. I want to live a good life without this fear hanging over my head.

I have seen the spirit of rejection affect so many areas of my life, especially my relationships. I want to one day get married, and I don't want to miss out on my husband because of the fear of rejection. I also don't want to push people away if I want to start new friendships. I have a tendency to withdraw and isolate myself if I sense any form of rejection from others. But I don't want to hide myself away like that. I want to come out into the world. I wasn't like this in my youth. I used to trust people more, but over time and lots of rejections, I started to protect myself more, but maybe a little too much.

The book says in order to get rid of rejection, you have to accept God's love for you, then love yourself, then love others. The first one is easy to know, but not as easy to believe. I know God loves me, but do I really believe it deep down? Do I accept it? And if I can't accept His love for me, how can I accept any human love? You see how difficult this can be to start and keep the right relationship?

So I'm grabbing my shovel. I am digging it out, and I am planting new Truths inside me, so they can grow a beautiful fruit in my heart. I am glad to be single so I can deal with this spiritual issue. That way, when I meet the right person, I'll be even more ready for marriage.

So go grab your shovel, and we will work through this.

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