Journey of a Thousand Miles

So many goals... so little time. Sometimes my goals make me feel like a failure because year after year, I don't get as much accomplished as I hoped. Some things take twice as long or ten times as long! It's good to remember that God's goals for us are better than our own goals. Things will happen in His timing, and I will only get accomplished what He wants me to accomplish. My eternal purpose is better than any earthly attainment. Still, I find myself looking at my own deadlines, wondering when I can accomplish it all. My bucket list grows and grows, but I don't have the money to travel to all the places I want to go. I don't have the time to finish my book, start a business, AND pursue music all at the same time. It's just not feasible. God only gives us so much time in a day. And even if I DID accomplish all those things, what would it be for? Approval? My own satisfaction? Those things don't matter in eternal light. So I try not to push myself to th...

I am headed to Ireland next week, and I couldn't be more excited to leave! I need a change of scenery. Not that anything is going bad in my life. Things are finally pretty calm for once. I just need some adventure in my life and to get away from my 'to do' list. Every vacation I have had has been for family or music, so it's nice to finally have a real vacation where I don't have something to do except enjoy life. For 2 WEEKS!!!! I have to be honest though. My ex has been on my mind, and I've been wondering how he's doing. Wondering if he's still with his new girl, or if he's ruined it already. My bet goes on the latter. But I still pray for him and hope that God is taking care of him because Lord knows I couldn't handle him. Only every once in awhile do I miss him. It's hard when I see a picture of him. But I don't want to speak to him for a very long time. God needs to do some work in him before I give him that privilege. And then I...

It's been awhile. I've been busy writing new music for the album, getting into a regular exercise regime, staying focused at work, and working through spiritual issues. I recently borrowed a book from a friend called "Rejection," and it talks about the spiritual side of rejection and why we feel it. Interesting stuff. It says that an evil spirit can enter a baby in the womb and manifest itself throughout that person's life. The spirit of rejection can move through several generations, and it's passed down to you through your family line. I know. Intense stuff! So I've been praying for God to remove this spirit from my life so I can get on with living, and it's a lot harder than you would think. Rejection can attach to you deep into your soul, and it takes some digging to get it out. But I don't want to live with it anymore, so I am grabbing my spiritual shovel and getting that sucker out. I want to live a good life without this fear hangi...