It's been awhile since I've made a post, mostly because I just haven't felt inspired to write. Actually, I haven't been inspired AT ALL. Things in my life are just bland right now, and I don't have enough around me to keep me motivated. Work is tiring and doesn't pay enough, I'm tired of living with my parents, and I just don't have much of a social life to keep me going. The social life I do have consists of people that I have little in common with, besides a few close friends, so the more I spend time with them, the less fulfilling I feel. I guess that's just it. I don't feel fulfilled. I feel very empty and devoid of any meaning right now. I need to be out and about. I'm a person who needs alot of excitement and adrenaline in my life, and Houston just doesn't have it for me. I need to be around people my own age who are just as adventurous and ambitious as me, who lift me up instead of tear me down, who bring out the best in ...
So life has been so crazy that I almost forgot to blog. Actually, I've been avoiding the ole blog because I really didn't want to talk about what was going on, which is alot of CRAP! Anyway... Alot has been going on. God has been testing me. But... it's all good. I got a job. A temporary job for the holidays, so I'll be kept busy. I need it. A good managerial job to keep me responsible and busy. Seriously though, the past week has been rough. There have been good times, mind you, but emotionally, things have been tough with my family. Through my Recovery group, I've been learning to deal with conflict differently than how I learned in my family, and going back to a family that still practices bad habits is not good for someone recovering from those things. Talk about high stress. So I've been in a lot of deep sorrow, anger, depression, you name it. I just thank GOD that I have the geographical distance from my family, and I have an amazing group of friends here...
Wow.... my resume needed some major tweaking. I have spent the majority of this morning refreshing my resume, looking into unemployment, and contacting my temp agency. I feel more proactive about my job search this time around. I want to do it differently than last time in the sense that I will depend more on God with where He wants me. I know He will lead me where I need to be, and it makes the job search a lot easier. I am also more willing to put in some effort this time because the more I work and search for jobs, the faster this process will go, and the more liable I will find a job that works for me. I am a little more hopeful this time around because I know God will provide, and I know all this is happening for a very special reason. What that reason is, I don't know at this point. But I am putting a lot of energy into praying over this process, and I hope my friends do as well. I have found several jobs in my search that I would love to do, but don't seem qualified. And...
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