Okay With Not Being Okay
So, after my little temper tantrum with God yesterday, I felt much better. I think sometimes it's good to know that I don't always have to be okay with the way things are. In short, it is ok to not be ok. And once we are honest with ourselves and honest with God, He can do a much better work in us.
Also, I took the 5 Love Languages Assessment and discovered some interesting findings. With friends, my primary love language is Quality Time, and my secondary was a tie between Words of Affirmation and Physical Touch. And just as I suspected, in a romantic relationship, my primary love language is Physical Touch, and my secondary was a tie between Words of Affirmation and Quality Time. For some reason, I never thought of Words of Affirmation as one of my stronger love languages, but it makes sense, seeing that I constantly need reassurance and am easily harmed by critical remarks.
So anyway, I would just like to say that being honest about my feelings of singledom really helps because it opens the doors for others to assist. I struggle with reaching out to others and trying to be too self-sufficient, which causes alot of stress because I think I need to do everything for myself. It's so much easier to open up and be vulnerable about those things rather than holding them in and letting them weigh on you. It also makes it easier to depend on God more. ;)
In other news, I have recently joined a Women's Development Program (WDP) at my church, which is a year long program that teaches you how to read the Word of God, how to serve and reach out to others, and how to live on mission. We are placed in our own community groups of about 6-8 girls, and we will serve along side each other, get to know each other deeply, and also strengthen each other in many aspects of life. Just in the 2 weeks that I've been going have helped so much in how I read the Bible and relate to others.
I have already fallen in love with the girls in my community group, and they all inspire me in their own unique way. Yesterday, after I met with my girls, I realized that what God has given me here and now is a really good thing, and I need to cut my losses and stop holding onto things that no longer serve a purpose in my life. Something I have learned from severing the ties and closing the doors on negative people/behaviors/habits is that God opens our hands for something so much better. We've heard the adage time and time again: "When God closes one door, a better one opens." We would do our future selves a huge favor by trusting God when He takes something away that we thought was so valuable. Sometimes suffering without it allows us to lean on God more, and when He gives us His strength, we realize we are so much better off without those dependencies we once held onto.
This is just a short recap of what is currently going on. I am trying to update this thing more often because I think it's good to be more open and honest with the happenings in my life. Not only does it allow others to reach out, but it helps others to know that they are not alone in their struggles. So with that said, look forward to more posts!
Also, I took the 5 Love Languages Assessment and discovered some interesting findings. With friends, my primary love language is Quality Time, and my secondary was a tie between Words of Affirmation and Physical Touch. And just as I suspected, in a romantic relationship, my primary love language is Physical Touch, and my secondary was a tie between Words of Affirmation and Quality Time. For some reason, I never thought of Words of Affirmation as one of my stronger love languages, but it makes sense, seeing that I constantly need reassurance and am easily harmed by critical remarks.
So anyway, I would just like to say that being honest about my feelings of singledom really helps because it opens the doors for others to assist. I struggle with reaching out to others and trying to be too self-sufficient, which causes alot of stress because I think I need to do everything for myself. It's so much easier to open up and be vulnerable about those things rather than holding them in and letting them weigh on you. It also makes it easier to depend on God more. ;)
In other news, I have recently joined a Women's Development Program (WDP) at my church, which is a year long program that teaches you how to read the Word of God, how to serve and reach out to others, and how to live on mission. We are placed in our own community groups of about 6-8 girls, and we will serve along side each other, get to know each other deeply, and also strengthen each other in many aspects of life. Just in the 2 weeks that I've been going have helped so much in how I read the Bible and relate to others.
I have already fallen in love with the girls in my community group, and they all inspire me in their own unique way. Yesterday, after I met with my girls, I realized that what God has given me here and now is a really good thing, and I need to cut my losses and stop holding onto things that no longer serve a purpose in my life. Something I have learned from severing the ties and closing the doors on negative people/behaviors/habits is that God opens our hands for something so much better. We've heard the adage time and time again: "When God closes one door, a better one opens." We would do our future selves a huge favor by trusting God when He takes something away that we thought was so valuable. Sometimes suffering without it allows us to lean on God more, and when He gives us His strength, we realize we are so much better off without those dependencies we once held onto.
This is just a short recap of what is currently going on. I am trying to update this thing more often because I think it's good to be more open and honest with the happenings in my life. Not only does it allow others to reach out, but it helps others to know that they are not alone in their struggles. So with that said, look forward to more posts!
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