Matrimony


It's been awhile, old friend. What's going through my head these days?

Well... lately I've been feeling God preparing me for the ominous life stage of marriage (dun dun DUN). I've been reading articles on the Boundless website and recently watched Fireproof. They both have been apt to show me the not-so-glamorous side of marriage. I will admit, I still dream of marriage being sort of magical, coming home to the man of my dreams everyday, traveling together, having a family together. In my head, it looks like an image of something you'd see in a snow globe or a Thomas Kinkade painting, but Lord knows this is not what reality looks like. Oh, how I wish it could be.

I know that marriage won't be perfect, but am I prepared to deal with the realities of matrimony? The melding together of two separate people for the rest of our lives, the sharing of everything, the stress of finding a home, paying the mortgage, raising children?!!! I hadn't thought of how difficult it could be. I only thought of how much better it would be than being single.

But to keep a good perspective... I am looking forward to the growing of a lifelong friendship, getting to know someone's quirks and learning to love them, learning to communicate and live together, to share dreams together and spur one another on.

I know God is preparing me for something that won't be easy... but it will be good.

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