Our Solid Rock

I am starting to understand what it really means to recklessly abandon myself to Jesus. This was always a hard notion for me because I was still holding onto worldly things to give me happiness, stability, and fulfillment. I looked for satisfaction in my boyfriends, friends, career, and dreams. I learned the hard way that all these things will disappoint me because they are imperfect and can be taken away. Isn't it great that we have a perfect and complete God that will never disappear? He is the only solid ground with which to stand on.

I constantly struggle with a need for approval and validation, and I try to find it from people, but people can never complete me. Only God can provide me true completeness. When I dedicate myself to surrendering all I have to Him, that's when I begin to find the approval and validation I so desperately need. All our sin stems from this desire: to feel complete. We try to find it in the wrong things, and it causes us to stumble because these things are unreliable and incomplete without Jesus.

I am beginning the process of finding my completeness in Him, and already I can feel the fear of rejection and failure dissipating. I am able to come out of my shell and into the light. I want to feel complete in Jesus before I get involved in another relationship because I want to know that I am already approved of without a boyfriend. I am already complete and validated. That will prevent me from making alot of unnecessary mistakes.

Here's to my new commitment to Jesus.