Pre-Quarter Life Crisis

Written May 21, 2008, Wed.

So I'm going through one of those moments where I'm struggling with what I want to do with my life. The Houston humidity is reminding me of how much I don't want to be here and how much I wish I were somewhere else doing something else. I don't want to work in the fashion industry anymore, which means my degree is a waste (so I'm pretty pissed about that), and the things I want to do seem so far out of reach and unattainable that I almost don't even want to try. But there is a saying that makes me not want to give up:

"The important thing is not being afraid to take a chance.
Remember, the greatest failure is to not try. Once you
find something you love to do, be the best at doing it."

Here's another good one:

"Most of the important things in the world have been
accomplished by people who have kept on trying
when there seemed to be no hope at all."

So I've been pondering on whether or not I should go back to school, or move out of the state and pursue those passions that seem so unattainable. I feel like if I went out there and pursued those dreams, I would make a total fool of myself because I am not as talented as I should be, or I have not the experience or skills it takes to thrive. I know I've got to start somewhere. I just feel like I should have excelled in something by now and chosen one career path. I know that is living by unreasonable standards, but it seems that all the successful people in my field have already accomplished so much by my age. I feel like I'm too far behind to pick it up now. I know that it is never too late to start as long as I have time, and I shouldn't compare myself to others because I am on my own path. But I can't help but freak out at the thought of pursuing a different path than what I started. That means starting over from the bottom of the food chain and trying to reach something that is so out of reach to me right now. I guess you have to crawl before you can walk.

What I'm really wondering is, is it really worth it to start all over and pursue the things I feel passionate about, when there's the huge risk of failing and making a total ass of myself? I already know the answer to that question. I just need feedback from others.

Thanks for listening to my groanings.

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