My "Retreat" to Houston

So I stumbled upon a book at a coffeeshop in Tomball the other day. I had actually gone in there to do some writing, but started perusing the bookshelves and found a memoir called "He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not," which is a true account of a woman who struggled through love and many horrible relationships before finding God and a better man. Being a sucker for memoirs and also being able to relate first-hand with the book, I sat there and read for about an hour, taking it all in and feeling like I had just made a new best friend. But what it really did for me was make me realize that I was not alone and that God does have a purpose for all the craziness and ambiguity going on in my life right now. And, most of all, it gave me hope that something better will come along... if I just trust Him and wait.

I've actually done alot of soul-searching and had several revelations during my little "retreat" back to Houston. I've realized that there are a few things that need to change in my life, most of them residing within myself, rather than my outside circumstances. I've realized after moving away from what I thought were my "problems," I actually took my problems with me to my new city. Visiting home made me realize that I didn't have to leave to fix these problems. I need only to look inside myself, so that is what I'm setting out to do.

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Lisa Wiliams said…
Yay, I'm so glad you were able to figure that out! That revelation exactly what I've been trying to get across to you for so long, I just knew that you had to see it on your own to appreciate it. Does that mean you're going to move back to Houston now? Haha, j/k! :)
August 16, 2009 at 4:47 PM
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