Journey of a Thousand Miles

If you give others control over your decision making, you will never become the person you were meant to be. ( Finding Contentment ) For a long time, I didn't pursue my dreams because I didn't believe I was talented enough. Not only that, but I worried about what others thought of me, and I feared that if I performed my songs, I would make a complete fool of myself. I started playing guitar at 16, writing songs shortly after that, but I didn't perform until I was 28. That's a whole dozen years of worrying too much about what people think! Is there something you're not pursuing because you're more worried about what others think? Don't give them that control over your life. You'd be surprised how good you are at accomplishing your dream when you set out to do it.

I went for a drive to get some thinking out. Actually, I was trying to find a good book store, but there are none in Tomball. So I found myself at Half Price Books in Houston and knew exactly what I was looking for, but they naturally didn't have it (they never do). But I did find two hillbilly guys who were looking for a good cheap movie to buy. I mean, they were so hillbilly that you could barely make out what they were saying through all the mumble jumble and bad grammar. They were middle-aged, very badly dressed, and didn't smell too great either. But they made me happy... because they were happy. I used to work at a job where I was surrounded by rich people all day long. It got really old. So to see these two happy hillbilly guys who thought a movie for $2 was too expensive made me very happy. They didn't need riches. They didn't need fine speech. They didn't need nice clothes. They just had life and a dollar to spend on a cheap movie (on VHS, non

I guess I haven't been owing God His dues lately. He really has been gracious in my life. I don't always acknowledge all the blessings He's given me because I'm too busy looking at what I think He's withholding from me. So today I would like to do just that: to praise Him for what He has done. This month marks 3 years since I broke ties with my ex, who was very detrimental in my life. Everything about that relationship was destructive, and I am glad to say he is no longer in my present life. There were several times when I tried to permanently let go of him on my own strength, but he always found a way back in through my weakest points. It wasn't until I started Recovery that I was able to use God's strength to finally sever the ties on that relationship for good. God did the work that I wasn't able to do myself. And for that, I am grateful. There have been several disappointments in my life, some of which have come in the form of unrequited love. Th